Thursday, May 26, 2011
Just came back from work, lying on the bed, everynight reminiscing of the days with her. Each day when I woke up, will have a sight of the fluffy turtle carpisa before I start my day and ended my day. Whenever I changed my cloth, I'll have a sight on the red jacket. Whenever I pay for something, will have a sight of the wallet. Whenever I don't have the will to go through my day, will just roaming around those places. Pain is the best companion for me now, just want to get drown in it.
I'm not a perfect person, that's for sure. There're many things I wished I didn't do but I'll continue learning. Enough with my life, kinda had enough with it. Don't need you people to feel sorry for me, and don't ever try to tell me to move on. I'm tired hearing those words and stop it! Just leave me alone, I'm comfortable with the way I'm going through now even if it seems to you guys I'm hurting myself. It's ok, just need the pain to flow into my veins, that's what ease me through my everyday's life now~ Until then....
